Monday, December 18, 2006

Chance Encounters

Christmas vacation had just begun.

The students of the University were all on vacation--as was I. But, I still had quite a few things to put in order before taking the much needed break.

I listened to my own footsteps as I made my way towards our lab. Without classes, the building was empty--save for the guards and the custodians, and they were all chatting in the lobby. It was so still that I immediately sensed the shift in the air when you open your faculty room door. You're there to wrap a few things up, as well. Like me, you weren't expecting anyone else.

We stare at each other for a moment before I decide to turn and walk away. But, before I could turn my decision into conscious action, you raise your hand in greeting, "Oi."

"Hey," I respond lamely. My smile doesn't hold much reality in it. I quickly lower my eyes, trying to hide my apprehensions about speaking to you.

You approach me, but not close enough to touch. I could reach out and my fingers wouldn't graze your shirt. "I'm sorry," you say in that quiet tone of yours that tells me you're serious. You hate apologizing. The last time you did, you had a grin on your face, as if you had no idea what you were doing. You're a proud person. 'Sorry' is a word that is alien to you.

"You didn't do anything wrong," I explain in a voice that matches yours. You smile, you're about to extend your hand in friendship, but I stop you in your tracks. "But I'm sorry, too."

"For what?" you ask.

I look you in the eye to try to convey the message that I am serious as well. "Because I can't accept your apology just yet. I'm not ready to let go of things just yet. So, I'm sorry." I bow my head and begin to walk away.


And, it's a pointless encounter that I want to happen as I stand in front of the classroom you teach in during school days. But, perhaps because it is a pointless encounter, it doesn't happen, and probably never will.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Life Lyrics: Invisible War performed by Sitti Navarro

Invisible war
Seems we're waging an invisible war
Strained maneuvers, keeping silent score
In this invisible war
Everyday I seem to lose you more
Both wishing that it was like before
In this invisible war

Talk about a fine a line between love and hate
We've lost more than our direction of late
Talk about a fine line between lovers and friends
We've never been lovers, now we're not even friends

In this invisible war
Seems we're waging an invisible war
Everyday I seem to lose you more
In this invisible war

Wounded deeply,the scar is here to stay
Opening up at all the little things I do or say
You always want things to be as before
So I make you angry and you bleed a little more

In this invisible war,
Seems we're waging an invisible war
Everyday I seem to lose you more
In this invisible war

Want to go away,I still love you
Got to go away, I'll always love you
Got to be away, Time heals all wounds

In this invisible war...

Life Lyrics: 214 by Rivermaya

Am I real?
Do the words I speak before you make you feel
That the love I have for you will see no ending?
Well, if you look into my eyes, then you should know
That you have nothing to doubt, nothing to fear
And you can lay your questions down because if you'll hold me
We can fade into the night and you'll know

The world could die ,and everything may lie
Still you shouldn't cry
'Cause time may pass, but long than it'll last
I'll be by your side

Take my hand
And gently close your eyes so you could understand
That there's no greater love tonight than what I have for you
Well, if you feel the same way for me, then let go
We can journey to a garden no one knows
Life is short, my darling, tell me that you love me
So we can fade into the night and you'll know

The world could die and everything may lie,
But you won't cry
Cause time may pass and everything won't last
But I'll be by your side

Forever by your side

So you won't cry


This song reminds me of the person that I care for the most. But, more than anything, it makes me want someone to sing it to me. Yeah, I know how selfish that is, but that's how I honestly feel.